Mitch Albom wrote in his book, The Time Keeper,
“Try to imagine a life without timekeeping. You probably can’t. You know the month, the year, the day of the week. There is a clock on your wall or the dashboard of your car. You have a schedule, a calendar, a time for dinner or a movie. Yet all around you, timekeeping is ignored. Birds are not late. A dog does not check its watch. Deer do not fret over passing birthdays. an alone measures time. Man alone chimes the hour. And, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other creature endures. A fear of time running out.”
Honestly, I don't fear time running out. I fear not being able to do enough to live my life to the fullest before time runs out. Lately, I have been trying to balance out my personal life and my career. I take pride in the work I do, and at the same time have a happy fulfilling life. I want to find myself spending quality time with family and friends, encountering a possible significant other, and doing the things I love; singing, reading, writing, taking photos, traveling, going on random road trips, and all that there is in my seemingly unending list of things I love doing and would love to do.
I recently met an amazing person. I guess I could only hope to be like a female version of him somehow. Just when I was starting to feel like I have become alone in my own little world of realism mixed with a tad bit more idealism and fantasy, I found someone who completely understands me. Once again, I realized I love the way I am, and that fitting in with most of the crowd is quite boring. I feel I was not meant to blend with the background.
I feel a lot better now. In fact, I feel so much better that I have started writing again, and singing feels, well, less superficial. I found meaning to lyrics once more. Thus, I can conclude with much confidence that I am once again, inspired.
Maybe, my roller coaster is in the "climbing up" stage right now. I could only hope it never goes down again, or if that is inevitable, I wish it would do so as slowly as possible.
In line with that though, I'm going to try even harder to make the most of my life. I have been receiving plenty of blessings. I feel I should and MUST pay it forward.
I'm measuring time not by numbers, but by the things I do while I still have it.